Brief review since the beginning of the crisis

After I had to close my theater because of Corona in March 2020 after 25 years, all my travel offers to Morocco had to believe in it. And suddenly, when events were at a standstill, there was time and space for something new. In this change I felt secretly carried and kissed by fate, because for a while I actually had the feeling that I wanted to take a longer break.

Looking back, I looked back at my stressful life, which over the years as a theater woman, director, organizer, teacher, performer on stage and coping with all the tasks
behind the scenes led to overload.

I ran
my theater That's why my concept was to rent the theater, which is housed in a former listed farm barn, for weddings and all company and family celebrations. My team and I also cooked for our guests at some events.
Unfortunately, the really good financial success did not materialize. I've never been able to live or grow beyond the hand-to-mouth limit. This hurt me more and more to the point of even being ashamed of it. I just never managed to stand up for my VALUE. Neither professionally nor privately. I sold myself and my services far too cheaply.

And it was immediately clear to me: It can't go on like this anymore!

New chances for a new life in happiness and contentment

In August, like every year, I went to my family in Sicily and spent 4 to 6 weeks there in the summer, as usual. When I then wanted to return to Germany in September, as originally planned, I asked myself: Seriously?? What do you want there now? Your theater is closed. Your son is over 20 and self-employed. And you are here by the sea with your family and you even have the opportunity to work here! I yoga and dance classes, massages and energetic healing sessions.

In November the hotel closed and I moved to the nicest room in the hotel!
In a small glass palace over the sea and I practically had the whole hotel to myself!

All in all, I was in my father's home country for 8 months at a time and rediscovered my second home.

Now my internet journey started

I dealt with all topics that interested me, shot
tutorial videos on the beach and on the terrace for my courses and workshops in "Dance into Femininity".

I knew I had to invest in my visibility on the Internet now and completed
a 12-week marketing course to gain a better understanding of this new profession.
After that I understood that this was just the beginning because in the end I realized that
it is an incredible amount of work and that attending a course was not nearly enough
to gain visibility online.

It was darn.
I felt increasingly like a failure because I knew how much I had to give and couldn't reach customers online.
I even let myself be coached 1:1 and it still didn't help me to build up this new mainstay.

Thoughts like ok, that's not supposed to be and no one wants you... ahhh what old crap in my head that was brewing more and more.

The shame grew.

Dive into my shadow realm and emerge into my kingdom

I looked intensively at all the feelings and old beliefs that came up from my shadow realm. And made it up with you by feeling it again and shaking out the old pain and dancing out.

Dance into femininity is my passion and my path to healing.

In my retreats , I train movements with the women that support their femininity, strengthen their self-esteem and increase their self-confidence. Body, mind and soul are all connected and so the approaches are different.

But the all-important lesson for me was yet to come

In 2020 I broke up with my boyfriend after many years and still had a lot to digest.

In 2021 other women suddenly approached me and told me about their experiences with men from Morocco.
With my personal experience and the intensive study of this country and its social conflicts, I was able to help some women to take a step in the right direction for them.

I have traveled a lot through this country alone, always in the direction of the desert, and in my encounters along the way I have always asked the Moroccan men and women the question: how is their life and what would they like to improve.
Young and old women, old and young men. I also met tourists who told me their stories.

In this way, the Moroccans gave me an insight into the way of thinking in their culture, which helped me
to reconcile myself with my history in this country.
I am thankful for this process today because it took me through all my inner demons and I finally came into my power and self love.
I love this country and its people.
There I experience a lot of heart energy and magic, the magic of the Orient with all its sides, the most extreme polarities and radiant faces. Every medal has two sides!

Do not worry Be Happy! trust! What comes, comes.

That's how I slipped into this new "role" and today I feel my loyalty to women so much more intensely that from this year 2022 I would like to support women on this topic in 1:1 coaching.

In hindsight, clarity was probably a very important topic for me in 2021.
I learned very well to set my limits and to live my self-love, to finally trust my intuition , because I "knew" and felt a lot beforehand, or rather my wise body betrayed it to me.
A healer once advised me to listen to my body because it is my oracle. Yes, that's really true! You can feel when something is wrong and if the body still shows signs, then everything is clear to me.

I practiced intensive self-care and radically separated myself from situations and people
that were no longer good for me and experienced a new freedom and more serenity over the course of 2021.

I had no motto for 2021. But what I lived was:

To follow every trail that interests me, to try everything, shadow integration, joie de vivre and clarity.

Unpack treasures and gifts

So I also spent the winter in Sicily between online courses, sea,
nature, sun, family, friends, dancing, meditating, yoga, Wim Hof ​​ice training
and increasingly began to be happy in myself and in my life.

In 2021 all the "ass angels" probably had my treasures unpacked and
made me a friendlier and more empathetic person (stress makes you old!)

After going through all this development and reconciliation with me,
I now have a clear idea of ​​where I want to grow and how I want to live.
I want to support women in those difficult to understand feelings and relationships
with these men.
Most of the time, the self-esteem is very disturbed afterwards and they get into a dependency
that is coupled with longing and addiction.
Women who have imposter syndrome or who are highly sensitive are mostly attracted to this type of man.
And since the desert has been filled with yoga and retreats, they've understood how to trigger western women.

And yet it takes a lot of courage for me to write about all this.
But I know that if I write publicly about my shameful feelings,
I can help other women who have found themselves in such a situation.

So, that's why my motto for 2022 is:

KEEP FOCUS AND OUT WITH IT!
Curtain up - voila life!

I'm here now!

What will I focus on in 2022?

• to blog
• Write down my stories from Morocco for a later book (for 2023).
• Organize retreats for women in Sicily and the Ore Mountains
• Desert travel / retreat with camel trekking
• Coaching women in their self-worth

Personal:

• Change my diet to alkaline
• Trust my intuition
• Finishing my training on intuition this year
• Live and work in Sicily 6 months a year

So these are my “ideas” for 2022.

But….

“If you want to make God laugh, tell him about your plans”

In this sense, let's foam! 

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